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mistsplitter) wrote2023-02-28 06:48 am
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[ Okay, now that's just straight up crazy. Ayaka, go home. She's laughing though, so amused by the idea of all these grumpy blonds walking around. Farmer Cloud, Emperor Cloud, Commissioner Cloud, Delinquent Cloud, Princess Cloud... ]
Hehe... I'd love to visit.
[ And she'd be hiding her laugh behind a hand, if Cloud hadn't taken it. But maybe that's for the better, because he'd be able to see her genuine smile. Were they still in Nippon, the sakura blooms would be a lot brighter here, trickles of electricity making it seem more brilliant due to her excitement.
There's a couple who approaches though, and they ask if they can check out the telescope! Ayaka decides that they can just come back later, and ops to give them way. ]
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[ He humors her. Whether she actually tells him or not, Cloud doesn't mind. Just as he wasn't aware of how much he'd started smiling today, he's caught by her own genuine grin. It's the look of someone who didn't smile out of courtesy. Or smiled out of contentment with a pleasant conversation over tea back at her estate. This...was the smile of a girl that didn't need to work hard to win his heart. She had it a long time ago. She took a piece of it from the very first day they met. He just hadn't realized it yet.
Ultimately, Cloud does comply when another couple approaches asking if they can check the telescope soon. That was fine by him! Because while it wasn't pitch black outside yet, the skies were clear, and the lack of light pollution made the world above them all the easier to witness. Hand in hand with Ayaka then, they make their way out to the deck. All of Coldreach was laid out for them to see. He leans against the railing beside her, as the little cottages and treehouses start lighting up as families and travelers alike start to settle in for the night. ]
Kinda takes me back...
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Once they find a more secluded spot though, where they can look up at the night sky and the view below without much noise and away from the other onlookers, the cue to take in the moment is taken. Less Cloud planet talk, and more about thisβ everything.
She leans on his arm, if he lets her, eyes set on the night sky. ]
I still can't believe it, sometimes... [ They talked about eating watermelon with salt, and to watch the meteor shower and make a wish. Ayaka didn't think that night would ever end up that way. She never thought a night like that could ever happen. ]
Do you think we can make a wish, even though there are no falling stars?
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[ As for her query... He already had his wish come true. He already fulfilled it. He was going to hold it and cherish that wish for as long as he was able. Though he has an idea. ]
Why not? [ He joins her in stargazing, the sky holding a navy hue as it teeters on the brink of giving way to the darkness of a starry night. Her touch is a comfort to him. Even moreso now that any form of contact was amplified here. Intimately, innocently, all of it was welcome and encouraged in the realm of Ellipsa. Suffice to say, Cloud was never going to have a problem with lack of contact. Especially when he had everything he could ask for right here beside him. ] 'Cept instead of falling stars...
[ A beat. Two beats. Then a small hum. ]
Mm. The brightest. We wish on the brightest star we can find.
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There are so many stars up in the sky. Every single one looks so bright and so big... ]
That oneβ [ Wait, no... She sees another one that is much, much brighter!! ]
There, ah- but that'sβ
[ SO MANY STARS!! She will never be able to make a wish at this point. . . And so, she settles on one that she particularly has her eyes on, still on the tips of her toes, looking very, very determined to keep her gaze on a particular bright star far, far away. >:(!!!!!
HNNNNNNGHHHHHH AYAYA WISH ]
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She wants her family and friends to be happy and safe at all times. She doesn't want anything bad to befall Ayato or Zack ever again; she wishes for Thoma's smile to never fade; and she wishes for Cloud's memories moving forward to always be good ones. No more tragedies, no more heartaches... he doesn't deserve it all.
That's when her smile falters, her heels meeting the floor once again.
She wishes that she could provide happiness to everyone: that she could make them smile, protect them, and keep them safe. Just as they have with her. ]
I wish...
[ She wishes Zack, Cloud, Thoma, or Ayato would never have to feel this wayβ unable to help those they care about, immature, inadequate, and helpless. Just let it be her who has to work on these things. The pain that weighs in her heart in knowing that Thoma was hurting, and she wasn't there for him... the pain in not being able to help anyone hurts so much. And for the past few weeks now, it is this very pain that's wounded her, drained her energy, taken away some of that brilliance in her eyes.
She never wants anyone else to experience this. ]
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He got one of his most important ones fulfilled already. But...now that he had all of his memories back, what else had opened up to him? What else could he strive towards? ]
...
[ The truth is...he still wasn't so certain if he could make the right wish when it came to what was going on back home. Not yet. A doubt he still harbors, but it's one that he and the others would need to shoulder together, so that they may better overcome them. Be that as it may, that didn't mean that Cloud didn't have something worth wishing for anymore. Just as his lips part to speak under his breath, he senses Ayaka shifting slightly at his side. Until her heels meet the floor...and her smile gone as her words fade into the ether. A light frown mars his lips as he looks down towards her. ]
Ayaka?
[ What's wrong? ]
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And so, she does. ]
I apologise, I was just... m- making a wish...
[ She knows she's in a safe space with Cloud, that she could tell him anything, and he would respond without bias or prejudice. He would listen, and still treat her like an equal while doing so. There is shame in feeling this way, however, because the reason why she feels this way is her own fault. She doesn't want him to see her this way.
Yet, that very same safety and comfort may be the reason why Ayaka is only able to externalise these feelings of helplessness that she's felt for almost a month now. She shakes her head as she brushes away the tears that begin to fall with the back of her hand, her back facing the blond. ]
Please. Please don't look. . .
[ Much as she'd like to try, she can't seem to stop herself from crying now. Soft muffled noises of controlled sobbing, and she gasps in an attempt to catch her breath. ]
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As if he already knew. As if he knew exactly what needed to be done. This was an attempt for the two to just...get away. Regroup. Learn how to breath again. Come back stronger than before, together, for those that matter. And yet...what of Cloud? What of his emotions? His feelings? The revelations that came to light as of recent. Something he was powerless to stop. Somebody he failed to save. Somebody Ayaka and he both couldn't save. They can't change what's already happened- what's already shaped and defined them. And as fortunate as they were with the fact that in this realm, death wasn't permanent... ]
...
[ The truth is; they're both hurting. They both feel like they've fallen down. But right now? It's about learning how to get back up. So instead of reaching out for her yet... Instead of calling her name and putting his hands upon her shoulders so she may fall into his embrace...
He doesn't look. Instead, Cloud stays by her side in silence, turning towards the railing as he looks up at the night sky. A cool breath in through his nose...and softly out, pensive. ]
2/3 i lied
[ A wish he may not know word-for-word, but he's formulating an idea in his head. His gaze wanders the stars. Searching... Searching... ]
The people that work the hardest are the ones that make them real. No matter how many hurdles we stumble over along the way.
And sometimes...we don't even know what to wish for. Not until we find a reason to. [ His voice becomes quieter. If only these words weren't just for Ayaka. They're meant for nobody else. For him. For her. ] Even if the reason hurts.
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[ Should Ayaka turn around at any point by now to face him, she'll see that he's no longer watching the stars on high anymore. He's keeping his eyes on her from now on.
Because the brightest star isn't up there. ]
I'll protect your wish, too.
[ She's always been right in front of him. ]
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Ayaka doesn't look at him when she turns to throw herself at him. Rather, she can't, when her eyes are just so blurry from the tears. Once again, he remains her prince, her hero. The one who would catch her whenever she falls. His words resonate in her heart, that she must work hardβ the hardest she ever hasβ to make her wish come true. She'll become stronger, someone that her loved ones can trust, so that she can protect them all. ]
Cloud... [ It's difficult to speak, let alone breathe, between her sobs, but she doesn't want to waste a moment in not showing her gratitude to him. It may take a bit to register her words, when they are muffled as she speaks against his chest. That she can let herself go in this manner in his presence speaks so much of how she can truly be herself around him. A bird with a broken wing who just wants to be home, so that she can heal and mend, until she can fly again. ] I- I will protect you, too. All your wishes.
And Ayato's, and Thoma's... Zack's, too.
[ A few more sobs, until she manages to calm herself down. Yet, she doesn't move. ]
I do not wish to disappoint anyone again.
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They can see her wish come true together. She can get stronger. They can get stronger. But they're never alone.
They never have to be. ]
You never did. [ He breathes in the scent of her hair as he bows his head and nuzzles against her, kissing the side of her head, his hand rubbing gently along her upper back. ] Not once.
Only people we disappointed was ourselves.
[ And the sooner they make it up to themselves, the sooner they can get back up for the sake of others. ]
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He may be right, though. Ayaka stays silent as she lets his words play over and over in her mind. Difficult as it is to accept, and as much as she wishes to shoulder the blame for all the hurt her loved ones have gone through, he has a point.
Rather than say anything more, as if to make her sound even worse and rejecting Cloud's words, she pulls away so that she may look at him. Cloud is hurting too, and she understands that now.
Her eyes have turned red from all the tears she's shed, but at her weakest, she looks up to him for direction. She'll know what to do if she's with him. And so, she asksβ ]
What did you wish for?
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I didn't make it yet.
[ But, now that he's face to face with her again, his hands slide down the length of her arms, until he finally takes hers. He doesn't want her to look away. This time, it's eyes on him when he says, ]
I wish...for the strength to protect what I cherish.
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But it's not up there.
[ She's right in front of him. And just as he'd fight to protect her wish? Cloud wishes to his Star in kind. ]
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She can come to him for comfort, come home and rest and heal. He would give her whatever she needs to be happy. But at the same time, she's his star. Just as he holds her hand and gives her strength, shows her that there's more to the little cage she's been given, she makes him feel normalβhumanβgiving him experiences that he's missed out on. Experiences that he never would have had otherwise, but for the better.
Her own eyes, clear as the cloudless sky on a normal day, watery as they may be, reflect the stars in the sky a bit better. She takes a deep breath without looking away, and she once again makes a commitment to him. ]
I will make it come true. [ Just as she has with his other wishes before this. ] I will not disappoint you.
[ And she would not make this promise to him if she didn't have the confidence and the conviction. Whatever may come, she will make sure she keeps her word. It is everything Cloud deserves for everything he has given her. ]
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The tension leaves him. It just melts away as he heaves a sigh of relief- albeit one that tremors slightly. She's such a constant. A beacon of light. His reason for getting to experience what it's like to be normal. ]
I love you.
[ He can say it to her every day, and it would never get old. The impact she has on his life is something he will never take for granted. ]
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[ He hugs her tight, but she clings to him like a lifeline when he brings her close to him again. All this time, she's felt so weak, but she feels stronger because of him. That she has more to fight for, and now that she has a better idea of how to become a better person, it gives her the motivation to keep pushing and not give up. ]
I will make your wishes come true. So... please, continue to keep your eyes on me.
[ She smiles against him as she hugs him tighter, though it probably isn't as tight in Cloud's standards. ]
I love you, Cloud. My own troubles really so melt away when you are here. I am so blessed to be loved by you.
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[ They'll make their wishes come true together. They'll learn from their mistakes. Roll with the punches. Protect what they love. Protect what they still have. Protect what they hope to gain. He already feels a sense of strength reinvigorating him just holding her like this. A soothing breeze sweeps across the open balcony, his hold loosening of her despite not letting go fully. ]
I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for you. [ As he thinks upon what he just said...he hums faintly to himself as if he needs to add to it. From the heart, Cloud. Your own. ] I wouldn't be who I am today...without you.
[ That's when his arms slip lower, draping around her waist as he takes this moment to watch the stars shine in her pure eyes. ]
Lucky me.
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Do you remember when we were having sushi before the day of the arts festival?
[ They were celebrating a year of their friendship then. It is still so important to Ayaka to this day. Next year, she hopes she won't be too busy that she would almost forget. ]
We talked about the omamori that you keep on you. I believe we may not need to replace it, when it contains a prayer to keep you safe at all times.
[ And that means, there is no expiry to it! But she pulls away completely now, taking out her phone. After fiddling with the charm and removing the red camellia that hangs off it, she offers it to him with both hands. ]
The tsubaki has always stood to represent the Kamisato Clan, but ones that bloom redβ this one in particular represents my eternal and everlasting love for you.
Perhaps it is rather belated when you have had all of me for such a long time now. But... I would still like for you to have this. Happy anniversary, my love.
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Yeah.
[ It was hard to forget, like many days behind them. Just as precious as the day they met and she introduced him to takoyaki, the endearing look on her face when she shut the door in his face, only to peek right on out at him to reveal her first 'secret', or the light in her eyes when she realized she was coming out of her comfort zone and actually climbing a tree, the memories can continue...and he'll cherish each and every single one. Even still, the omamori charm remains in his pocket to this very day. If they'd stayed in Nippon, he would have finally parted with it, if only to carry on the prayer to the next as was custom. But now?
Whether or not they can return back, he returns to Gaia, or they go to Inazuma together...he's going to hold it tight. A prayer to keep him safe at all times... Her words in his mind's ears calling him home. Giving him a reason to come home. ]
?
[ That's when she presents to him her red camellia charm, offering it with both hands. His breath catches silently, and her words leave an impact. The fact that she wanted him to have this when it was something so important to her, even as it represents her eternal love of him...
It's a moving gesture. ]
Ayaka, I...
[ "Happy anniversary, my love." ]
...
[ She won't be left waiting. Not with his hands covering hers. Not to close off the camellia, but to accept it into his. Speaking of having a reason to come back home... ]
Then,
[ Momentarily, he slips the red camellia charm into his pocket...before taking out his phone in turn. On the end of it, hangs the everlasting sakura. He knows exactly what it represents. The beauty and the tragedy. But as he speaks, fiddling with the charm and weaving it out of the phone's little loop, there's a sense of life in those mako-blues of his that was so rare. Purpose, drive, heart that belongs to a girl he wished upon a star for. ]
You're gonna wanna hold on to this.
[ In the palm of his hand, he holds it out for her. ]
I know what cherry blossoms represent. How long they're supposed to last, but...
[ Beautiful in life, yet so short. And still, Cloud shakes his head. ]
That's not what I see. [ He keeps his eyes on Ayaka. ] It...represents a promise. Just like every Springβ I'll always come back to you.
And so long as you have this...
[ He entrusts the sakura into her hand then, only to close it between his two. As eternal as Inazuma's principles. As eternal as his heart belongs with Kamisato Ayaka, ]
I'll never fall.
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She does not interrupt such a precious moment, merely smiling at him as he speaks from his heart. Whatever it is that Ayato said about Cloud before... she cannot fault him for it at all. Not when he is able to be himself in her presence, and not when he can share these sweet words to her. Just Ayaka. ]
How amazing you are, Cloud. Thank you. [ She takes a step closer to him without letting go, putting her free hand on top of his. ] I will take care of it and treasure it.
[ She'd been crying earlier because of the weight in her heart, but now? It's Cloud to blame this time. He's made her so happy yet again that her eyes are getting watery, just like when he told her that he loved her for the first time. ]
Hehe...[ She squeezes her eyes shut to get rid of the oncoming tears, because doesn't want to let go of him. Not yet. ] I- I apologise. I am just so happy.
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Seeing the tears form in Ayaka's eyes again, his heart doesn't sink seeing them. Instead, he finds himself blinking in turn. A surge of emotions rushing through him and making his heart feel like it's about to burst from his chest... He doesn't cry, but damn it he's close. Close enough that she's the only one he could lower his guard this far for. And so he grants her wish. Instead of wiping away her tears, he keeps his hands put, lowering them slightly so that she may still keep hold with him as he closes that miniscule space between them.
Until all that's left is nothing. Nothing but the two of them, beneath a beautiful sea of stars at the highest point in coldreach. Anniversary commemorated and their pledges to the other reforged. He leans his forehead against hers, smiling tenderly for her as she apologizes. ]
Me too. [ Once more, Cloud. From the heart. ] If this is what every day's gonna be like for us... I'd be in Inazuma yesterday.
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[ (γοΌΎβ½οΌΎγ) Ayaka had always believed it to be so. She never had a doubt, but saying it out loud right now... It feels more real.
She lets out a soft laugh, ducks a little so she can give Cloud a peck on the lips. ]
I love you so much, Cloud. [ There's drops of tears on face, which will dry up eventually, but she seems to be very happy again. Sakura blooms would be floating around her by now if they were still in Nippon, no doubt Cloud would be able to see it easily anyway, despite the visual lack of it now. ] Should we look at the stars some more?
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